The First Half of My Life
Episode 24
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Let's go.
Hang on...wait a minute...why are you dressed like this?
What's the matter?
I've already told you that my friends are very ordinary people.
With you dressed like this, it's a bit extravagant and they are not used to this.
How about this...we still have time
you can go upstairs and change your clothes again.
Just dress the way you do, before and after work.
My clothes are still good, just old.
It's so simple, not flashy, nor some animal fur clothes.
I feel it's appropriate for the occasion.
You feel it's appropriate as you normally dress like this.
In the past when you attended events, you dressed like this and so did your friends.
But my friends are different from your friends
they will feel weird.
Let's say this dress, which probably cost a few thousand
they will feel that the two of us are not compatible in our dressing...we'll look odd.
Well, how about leaving my bag in your car? I won't bring it along,
I'll just take my mobile with me.
- Will this be alright?- Just listen to me this time and go upstairs to change.
Just pants and normal shoes will do.
Otherwise people will say "How will Old Jin get matched with this wealthy lady?"
What wealthy lady? What do you mean by matched?
Your friends may not think or say this. It's just you overthinking this.
Can you share my worries about this ok?
If you have an issue with me, then regardless of what I say or how I dress today, the issues will remain.
Today it might be my skirt. Tomorrow it may be a word I said or food.
Aren't I right?
Don't think that way. I...I...I...
I feel that I have the problem.
I always feel that I'm not good enough,
but I've done my utmost to win you over.
But what's wrong with me?
No matter what I do, I still feel..
I'm afraid of you looking down on me. Look at your friends
with such good jobs and driving great cars.
If you have any problems, they just lift a finger, and it gets resolved.
Me...Can I do the same?
Can I help you the same way?
Then there's your ex-husband who gave you such a enviable lifestyle previously.
I just can't do the same for you.When I think of this, I...
Old Jin, I've said this to you before, but I will say this again.
All of this is caused by you overthinking things.
If you want to say, this issue of who can match up to whom.
When I meet your friends, I will say this
I am a divorced woman with a child, will this be enough?
Please don't say it like this. Please don't.
You are worried again. You are concerned that others will say I am not good enough for you.
It all boils down to an issue with your reputation (face).
Old Jin. Ever since I got divorced till now, I have learnt one thing.
Reputation (face) is the hardest thing in the world to let go,
but it's also the most useless.
What matters is your heart and what you think of yourself
and not how you see yourself, through the eyes of others.
So today, if it suits you, we can just go like this.
If not, you can tell your friends that I have an urgent matter to attend to.
Sorry. I think that today is not a good day to meet your friends.
I'm going home to be with my son.
Zijun..
Two, three, four.
Why did you return?
Did you forget something?
No, my stomach hurts. I don't want to go.
What happened?
Suddenly I had stomach pain,
So I thought if I went, I couldn't eat much and decided not to go.
Mum, I was tidying up the other day and had some coats which are still good. Why don't you wear them instead?
These cost a lot previously. It will be a waste not to wear them. Just take them with you when you go.
How can I wear your clothes?
Just leave your clothes here. You never know when you need them.
Grandma...quick, come over. We haven't finished dancing yet.
Jun Jun.
Ping'er is sleeping.
Are you feeling better now?
I'm ok. You can go home, mum.
Ok. If you don't need me around, I'll go home.
Uncle Cui is coming to pick me up.
Go home. Take care when crossing the road.
Before, I kept thinking that mom is just worrying for nothing.
Now looking at her, she has her own reasoning.
She can bear to invest efforts.
In the end, she still got a good outcome.
And Old Jin, with all that happened today
it felt like cold water being poured over me to wake me up.
I and Old Jin actually fell into a restrained
and compromising relationship.
Secured and amicable but not happy.
- Zijun.- Coming.
You're drunk.
Didn't drink much. I just drank a little.
Why didn't you go home? Who brought you here?
I called for a driver, so convenient. The driver drove me here.
Just for a short drive, it's already ¥100.
I'm fine. I...
can I come in and say a few words with you?
I...I'm going in already.
Zijun, I know that today, I made you unhappy again.
When you left, I really regretted it.
I feel that I shouldn't have done that.
As you said, it was just one dress, right? What am I doing?
Causing you to be so unhappy.
It was all my fault.
I'll change. I kept feeling...
I kept feeling that in front of you...
I was afraid that you will look down on me.
While drinking tonight, these friends of mind even said,
"Aren't you...stupid?
Dressing your girlfriend up prettily,
how good is that?"
I...also want to...
But...no matter what I do...
I kept feeling that they are all not good enough.
I also know...after all, your original life
and my life are different.
You probably saw it already. I...
have always been trying my best.
I also don't know what I should do.
Zijun, don't worry. Next time...
just wear what you want to wear.
- Just do what you want to do. Okay?- Enough already, Old Jin.
Let's just talk tomorrow.
Why?
Oh, you're awake, Zijun.
Hurry and call Ping'er to get up and eat. I'm already done cooking.
Okay. I'll cal him. Just eat first.
Old Jin, after work today, don't wait for me anymore.
Ha? Why?
I'm going to Tang Jing's place. She's already leaving tomorrow.
Oh, I can then drive you to there.
Aren't you going to still fetch Ping'er? After fetching Ping'er, I'll drive you two there.
No need. It's out of your way.
It's after work, and I'm not really doing anything. It's really fine if it's along the way or not.
Really no need, Old Jin. And also...
And also, from now on, you don't need to fetch me to and from work anymore.
Ha? What do you mean by that?
Old Jin, I know that for the past days,
you were really caring towards me and my son.
- But--- Okay already. Don't say it anymore.
I know that last night, I drank too much and was drunk, and I might have said some inappropriate words.
Or maybe, it's about the clothes thing. I won't interfere anymore, okay?
Don't put it to heart. Don't...
No, Old Jin. I know
that by saying these, I sound like an ungrateful evil person.
But I must say it.
We are not compatible.
Really, Old Jin. Just think about it well, and you'll know.
Us being together,
you are unhappy, and I am too restrained.
Hey, Zijun...
Zijun, I am not unhappy nor pressured.
The more I don't feel that there is any problem. I...
Sorry.
Zijun...
Tang Jing! Aren't we scheduled to fly tomorrow?
Why must you suddenly change flight and leave today? I even have an appointment tonight.
In our line of work, we have to leave anytime we are called. It hasn't been like this in just a few days. You should have been used to it already.
Usually, we only go on business trips and will be back in one to two days. This time, we'll be gone for a year.
- Shouldn't I say goodbye to my family and friends first tonight?- What's good is there to still say goodbye? Aren't you still going to leave anyway?
What really is the reason for changing the flights? Was this the request of the people in Hong Kong?
It was my decision.
- The reason?- No reason.
Are you deliberately tormenting me?
This is already called deliberately tormenting you?
Not informing you just right now, let you buy your own ticket now, and sit in the economy seats are not bad already.
You...
Please wear your seat belts.
Please adjust your seat rest for awhile.
I already left so that it won't be a drag when you send me off.
Zijun, if you have a problem, look for He Han. He Han, help Zijun more.
The number you dialed already activated the message alert function.
The notice of your call will be sent to her phone.
Miranda is here.
Miranda?
After Tang Jing left, Miranda is representing B&T in following-up the Carmen project.
Five minutes. I'll be there right away.
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Mr. Chen, in this powerpoint slides you are seeing, we added a lot of numbers from our latest market analysis.
I think that it will provide some new suggestions in this project we are collaborating in.
Okay.
Don't know if Mr. He will agree with it.
Oh, Mr. He. I finally am able to meet you in person and have the chance to learn from you.
Learn from each other. Please sit. You continue.
Earlier, I told Mr. Chen that within our collaboration proposal, there were actually a lot of impediments holding us back.
My style with Tang Jing is a bit different. I feel that when we work,
we all want things to be done as soon as possible and that both parties can gain from it.
So for those parts that can easily offend either party, let's just pass over it.
If that's the case,
I feel that it will be very convenient for my work. I really welcome it.
Thank you...
I don't agree.
The game rules that Tang Jing set must not be changed.
Or else, I'm not doing this anymore.
Tang Jing is my senior and she is, of course, Mr. He's long time partner.
But I think that I do will try to learn from her while working with Mr. He.
After all, in our career, we are not anyone's duplicate.
Feeling how each other work and doing some changes are expected.
I said that not due to Tang Jing but for the project.
When two parties work together for the first time,
only by monitoring each other and restricting each other,
can we obtain best possible balance and objectivity.
The greatest advantage of your B&T is developing and objectiveness.
As for these two words, I think Tang Jing is your B&T's best example.
That's why, compromising and being amicable
are not suitable in this very fast paced profession, Linda.
Miranda.
So sorry, Miranda.
I don't know if you have discussed with your boss this proposal that you presented.
But based on how much I know him, I think that his thinking is the same as mine.
Since Mr. He is so conservative and persistent,
I'll relay your suggestions to my boss.
But Tang Jing has already left after all,
we both must adjust with each other for a long time period starting today until both parties are satisfied.
Maybe today, you both were not prepared and have the patience for it.
Then let's just reset this meeting.
- Okay.- That, so sorry. Have to trouble you then.
If possible, let's talk again tomorrow. Hope we can have a good transition.
- Let's just reset this meeting then.- Okay.
Aren't you being a bully?
You think she's easy to bully?
Just arriving and she already changed our past collaboration contract.
A cruel heart under the cover of sweet words, she's inferior to Tang Jing.
B&T only have one Tang Jing. I'm afraid that from now on, we have to interact with more women like that.
Let's go and see a client now.
Hey, you must be Luo Zijun?
Ah, yes.
I'm Ms. Guo from supplies department. I work with Old Jin.
These past few days, Old Jin doesn't look very good.
I asked him what happened, and he told me about both of you.
I'm sorry Auntie Guo. I have to go back to work.
Old Jin... he's too embarrassed to see you.
But I know, he's hoping for you to have a change of heart.
Or else he's going to go into depression. You know depression.
Everyone's talking about depression. It's very dangerous.
Auntie Guo, I know you mean well,
but I really can't say anything about this.
Hey! What's wrong with you today?
To put it in a good way, you're bullying a good person.
What you do, the sky knows.
Karma will get you for doing these bad things.
This is already the fourth one here to reconcile.
I didn't know Old Jin's personnel was so good to others.
Seriously...
Changing is really needed.
So, I hope what you give me,
is not like other consultation firms, humdrum proposals,
and after working for a few years, gets so so results.
Most proposal done by consultation firms, if too noticeable,
will also be shot down due to unattainable requirements.
As soon as it requires large amounts of redistributing of people,
no one wants to be the bad guy.
Others don't know me, but you do.
If you trust me, I will do my best.
If you have any doubts, I will give you a very good looking proposal.
To help you rise without obstacles.
Which company doesn't know how to make a good looking proposal?
Why would I spend so much to hire you?
Looks like he... and your friend Luo Zi Jun...
have broken up.
Really?
I didn't know you also cared about this sort of stuff?
The friend groups now, everything that happens is instantly know by everyone.
Let's go.
Zijun,
Zijun..it's all my fault.
If I haven't done well, I will change.
I can improve,
but you can't just break up without any reason when you want it.
Old Jin. Have you not understood what I said today?
Furthermore, in this mall where we work
please do not tell other people about it. I really dislike people pointing fingers.
I didn't talk to people.
I really didn't say anything. But when they found out about it, they went to find you.
Who's pointing fingers at you? Let me know who, and I'll make them apologise to you.
Zijun. Listen to me. I know it's all my fault.
It's because I haven't done enough.
I'm not good enough for you. It's not your issue.
I've finished work.
Zijun. Haven't we agreed that I will
give Ping'er and you a lift everyday?
Not for today ok? We will talk about it later
or we could meet on the weekend for a meal with my child ok?
Let's leave together. I have something to say to you.
Luo Zijun. What are you doing? I was looking everywhere for you.
Hurry up. Let's go. We have a date with Tang Jing.
Let's go. Do you have any concept of time?
Luo Zijun,
after all that you've said, is it because of this person?
He's wealthy, and that makes him amazing?
I never thought you would be such a person
I am telling you, Luo Zijun. You'd better not regret this.
Let's go.
It makes sense now. She's already got someone.
That must be the person who helped Luo Zijun transfer to Planning Department with just a word.
- Really?- So powerful.
Old Jin lost tragically this time.
Women...
- This is reality.- Of course.
- That person is so handsome right?- Of course.
If it were me, I would follow him too.
I'm so sorry that you were told off too.
I'm okay. I got told off because I'm rich,
that is nothing.
The cost of bullying an honest man is huge.
Marriage can lead to divorce. Dating can also lead to parting.
If he continues to bother you, you report him to the police for harassment.
What honest man?
Everyone's method of finding love is different.
If we're talking about the really Zhen Shan Mei (abbreviation for Honesty, Kindness, and Beauty), he might not score higher than me.
Mum.
Why did you come with Uncle He Han today?
Uncle Jin doesn't have time. He won't be coming anymore in future.
Is it because Uncle Jin and you can't get along?
You could say it is.
I'm just like you. I like Uncle He Han more.
Stop this nonsense. It just happened that Uncle He Han is free today.
Let's go.
Uncle He Han!
Come on..let's get in the car.
- Slowly.- Okay.
You always thought that having a meal is a waste of time,
so there's no need to bring us out for a meal.
Tang Jing wanted me to take good care of you.
Today you encountered such a disheartening event.
If I don't treat you and Ping'er to a meal,
Tang Jing will curse me from Hong Kong.
Auntie Tang Jing went to Hong Kong?
She seriously has problems,
she said I could send her off. She lied even to me.
I also just found out today.
She took Vivian to Hong Kong, too.
Vivian?
Look at you when you hear gossip.
She's the one that...
that took selfies at my place and told everyone we were an item... that Vivian.
Really. Maybe only Tang Jing can think of.
Also, not only think of it, but put it in action.
Then she must think time apart from you is so gruesomely slow.
No... Vivian will.
Even though I really don't have anything going on with Vivian,
but now I really feel a bit of pity for her.
She really isn't a worthy opponent of Tang Jing.
You really don't have anything with Vivian?
Of course not.
But no one believes me. I'm too lazy to explain.
You can just eat this directly.
Use your hands.
What wrong with him?
Oh... this older brother (used to indicate a kid older than her son) is deaf and mute.
He wants us to help him.
Zi Jun! Don't give him money.
Why don't you have sympathy?
Uncle He Han, he's so pitiful.
It's fake.
What's fake?
You have to be independent in the future.
Hey,
I'll give you this. Go tell the waiter,
we need a glass of lemon water.
Then you can keep the change.
Waiter, a glass of lemon water for the table over there.
He actually heard and knows how to talk!
So, there are different methods to obtaining what you want.
Ping'er, remember. In the future, when you encounter a situation,
pay close attention and use your head. Don't be like your mom.
Ok!
Hurry and eat.
There another thing I don't know if you've thought about it or not.
It's the devious side of an old kind man again.
Previously he insisted on changing you to the planning department... why?
Because the planning department and the receiving department are on the same floor.
That's right! You already thought of it.
This means starting next week, as longer as you are in the planning department,
you and Old Jin will be seeing each other a lot.
Then I don't want to go.
But the store already knows I'm leaving. They've already started to look for new people.
This situation you need to think about it and decide yourself.
You can either just coexist on the same floor and after a while you will be used to constantly seeing him,
or you can return to the store.
Your sales skills are so good, they will welcome you back.
They also don't have to train new employees.
The only requirement is that you must know what you want,
and not how others might see you.
My advice to you is
if you want to live happily,
then you must first step on yourself
until you are like an old carpet that's been through everything (you need to suck it up and put yourself out there.)
Or there will always be someone to walk over you and stand in your way.
Tang Jing, how is Hong Kong? Have things settled down yet?
When you have time, do give me a call.
Tang Jing, actually I have met with some problems and would like to seek your advice.
When you've finished work, do call me. I'll be waiting.
So sorry. I've been really busy and just returned to my room.
My mobile ran out of battery, and I've only just now managed to power it up.
I never expected that once I got off the plane, they would have seven matters to take care.
It was so hectic that I couldn't stop to eat at all.
Are you asleep yet?
You said you needed my advice...what is it?
Ping'er...Ping'er
get up and have breakfast. Hurry up.
Mum's going to spread jam for you.
Hi...He Han.
Sure...ok...then thanks.
We'll be downstairs shortly.
Ping'er...hurry, Uncle He Han is coming to pick us.
Hurry up!
I will beat your bottom.
Are you listening?
Morning.
Why are you so good to pick us up today?
Since Old Jin already misunderstood, just let him misunderstand until he gives up.
Better lessen his pain now otherwise he'll be on your doorstep everyday.
But will this make me seem rather cruel?
Why should you mind what others are saying?
You haven't broken the law. Why should you put yourself out to please others?
Mum. I feel that what Uncle He Han is saying is cool!
Isn't this a little overboard?
If we do it, then let's do it thoroughly.
Otherwise it will be a waste of my time and effort, without any effects.
What would I be trying for?
Come let's get into the car.
Come.. Ping'er.
Put on your seatbelt.
[ Old Jin ]
Don't pick it up. In the future, do not pick up any of his calls.
After what he said about you, just simply put on act act of innocence.
Pretend you're capricious, vain, and never satisfied with what you have.
Let him vent for a day or two and the matter will blow over then.
Ping'er...
Uncle He Han didn't say that your mum is this type of person
but rather your mum is pretending. Understand?
Uncle Jin has a problem in handling this matter,
so you must remember...
You can chase girls when you grow up, but you must never ever stalk them!
Yes sir!
I'm not as great as you are at being so uncompromising.
Stay strong.
I'll be coming over to pick you up in the next two days
but by the third day, I've made plans for your morning pick up.
After today, I won't be going to work.
What do you mean?
I'm quitting.
Resigned? What will you do? Return to selling shoes?
Not doing that. I am going to work today to hand in my resignation.
I can look for a new job and have a change of environment.
I was going to mention it to you earlier. Sorry.
But it seems that it take much effort to get me the position.
It's fine.
Now you are more ruthless than me.
It doesn't seem like your usual style.
Did Tang Jing help you with this plan?
It's my plan. Tang Jing is so busy. I don't want to bother her.
Luo Zijun,
don't mind what others say. Let it remain in your heart, it's none of their business.
You are letting go of such a good opportunity in the Planning Department. Is it because of Old Jin?
It's none of your business!
Have you tried the effectiveness of these four words?
From that day, I often contemplated upon those words.
When I bought some new clothes and someone made a vulgar comment.
When I had to work and bring up a child with a small salary.
When some people ask why I don't hurry to find another man to pamper me.
On many, many occasions...
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Mama..
Your hair is straight now
Is it nice? Does it make me look younger?
Chen Junsheng told me that he saw you with a barber.
What barber?
That's a hairstylist.
From the look of it, you seem close to the hairstylist.
That's nonsense.
I'm only friends with him. I'm not divorced yet.
As long as you know what you're doing.
People are not using your credit card to cheat you?
You always think badly of people.
Anyway, I'm happy to use my credit card.
Using your card?
This short hair always needs maintenance.
How much does it cost?
2000 yuan.
2000 yuan!
It's already the cheapest.
Luo Ziqun
when you normally buy vegetables, you would run to eight shops just to get a small discount.
How could you spend so much on your credit card?
As your sister, I would not dare spend so much now.
You don't understand.
I don't understand! Use your brain please.
What time is mum coming here?
She's not coming over today. She wants us to go out to eat with her and Uncle Cui.
Uncle Cui is also coming?
What don't you understand?
This is to introduce us to Uncle Cui.
"In The Pouring Rain" by Ye Linsheng
♫ In the torrential rain, among the busy cars. ♫
♫ Why is the image of your face still so clear? ♫
♫ I hold my breath, watching you as you leave. ♫
♫ Why do I feel my heart slightly wavering? ♫
♫ When did I start becoming used to your presence? ♫
♫ Your calls always appear at the perfect time. ♫
♫ My heart has sold me out. ♫
♫ I still have a little hope ♫
♫ that you will come back, searching for me. ♫
♫ In the torrential rain, among the busy cars. ♫
♫ Why is the image of your face still so clear? ♫
♫ I hold my breath, watching you as you run towards me. ♫
♫ My heart is slightly wavering. ♫